mood: content music: Metallica "Whiskey In The Jar"

Carthians and Pizza

So the other day I was thinking about it and there is no way that I could ever play a member of the Carthian Movement.  You see not that long ago I or rather my character was put on the spot to give this new player who was unaligned kindred and new to the local Requiem Venue and he or rather his character wanted to know the low down on the Covenants from someone who was not his friends.  Now then I am playing a Nosferatue, Ordo Dracul and I told him that I was biased and he gave me the green light to tell him what I thought of the other Covenants.  Now then keep in mind when I gave this explanation it was all supposed to be off the cuff, flippant, and more than just a little glib.  Also this is not supposed to be a slam on any Covenant and or player.  Now then with that being said here is the rant.

            Ok so the Carthians want equality for all of Kindred society on a global scale.  This is not an inherently bad thing, they see Kindred society becoming stagnant and the old movers and shakers have been around for too long and are too set in their ways and they like being on top so much that they will stop at nothing to keep themselves there on top of the Kindred society food chain.  Now then as I was saying there is nothing wrong with a want for equality for everyone.  Nor is there any problem with taking steps towards that goal.  The problem that the Movement faces now is that while they have this lofty and wonderful goal no two of them can agree on how to go about getting to it.  Some of them want to play the diplomatic angle and get things done peacefully by holding mass votes and staging demonstrations and rallies.  Then there are some who want to sit back and use the same tools that those on top use to get there, like influence peddling, and back room deal making.  And then lastly there are those who want to go buck wild with shotguns and take it by force.

            Now then because the Movement is pushing for equality for all, there must first be equality within the Movement itself.  Ok fine not a bad idea but here is the problem with that, everyone has a voice and everyone gets to be herd and everyone then must have their opinion weighed and measured.  Well that’s great but now there are so many voices all shouting out to make themselves herd that no one can actually hear any one singular voice because they all just get lost in the din. 

            Huh…alright I think I may have lost you a little bit, so think of it this way.  There are lets say five people in a room together for a whole day and nothing to eat.  Round about dinner time the need for food is oppressive, so the five of them decide to order one really big damn pizza.  The only problem is that they all want different things on this big goddamned pizza.  Lets say that one of them is a Vegan so they are all sorts of ok with whatever veggies get put on the pizza but the person to their right is a vegetarian that also really happens to like cheese.  So the two of them can agree that veggies are good but they cant agree on the cheese.  Then sitting across from them is a guy who wants a cheeseburger pizza so he wants beef and cheese but no pizza sauce.  Well obviously this is not going to work with either the Vegan or the vegetarian.  Then there is a Polynesian girl who really wants to go Hawaiian style, but the other three say that fruit has no place on a pizza, and then lastly there is a little kid who just wants plain cheese, but no one wants that because pizza is really after all just a vehicle for toppings.  Now then if two or even just one of these five people were willing to budge on their choices then perhaps some progress could be made and perhaps a pizza would even get ordered, but because all of them hold so strongly to their choices no compromise can be made.  Now then lets say one of them just grabs the phone and starts to call well the moment that happens the others in the room, shout him/her down and in some cases become violent because: 1. they all did not agree on that choice or 2. they are doing something wrong and everyone else is right even if they all have different ways of doing the ordering, the one who is actually doing it is wrong.  Why because he/she is not doing it the way that the Vegan would do it, or the way that the kid would do it, never mind the fact that the kid and the Vegan would do it completely differently from one another. 

            This is my problem with the Movement.  They all want the same thing and for the most part it’s a good thing but none of them can figure out how to get there and so they just end up fighting amongst themselves more than anything else.  And this is what I told the new player.  I told him that I was biased in favor of my own Covenant but this is the best and funniest way that I can explain the Movement.  Anyway that’s my rant for now and hey I could be wrong.  Until the next time.

 Later 
Satan

mood: angry music: Tool "Ænima"

This is what I really want to say to my grandmother on my fathers side:

Why Hello There,

            Good to hear from you grandma.  The first thing that I would like to say is that I am sorry about the loss of you husband, from what I understand he was a good man.  

            Now then with that out of the way, what I have been wanting to write to you for the last two (2) months is a little something like this:

            I blame you.  I blame you for not having the courage to do the right thing some sixty years ago, when you should have dashed in the skull of my father your son.  I would like to tell you that my father is the poster child for the screaming abortion, and that the best part of him was left drying on your thigh.  I would like to tell you that the onus of responsibility rests solely upon your shoulders for bringing such a right bastard into this world and then allowing him to wreak the damage that he has.  I blame you.

            In closing to this letter I would like to tell you that I am sorry for missing the last dozen or so family gatherings, birthdays, holidays, etcetera, ok wait perhaps I am not so sorry.  You see I get this sinking suspicion that you all don’t really want me there and so therefore I have not been and will continue to not be in attendance to the gathers of the Three Ring Circus Side Show Of Freaks, by the by that would be all the rest of the family, just incase you could not get it.

            Oh, sorry one last thing, I consider this to be my last correspondence and so please after receiving this letter take the following steps to avoid unnecessary pain:

1. Loose permanently my mailing address.
2. Loose permanently my cell phone number.
3. Make no further attempts at contact.
4. Consider me to be dead as you are all surely dead to me.

Yours in some kind of half-assed respects

Jon

Or perhaps something like that.  I know that I am not going to because I want to be better than they are but at the same time fuck it would feel so good to do it.  Anyway, I need to go to bed.  I assure you that after I send the real letter and allow my head to cool down I will post for all who care the reasons as to why I would pen such a hurtful letter but until then.

Later

mood: annoyed music: Alkaline Trio "Maybe Ill Catch Fire"

I have no reall reason to be awake a this moment in time.  In fact I should have been passed out and dead to the world about an hour ago and yet for some damn reason I am still awake.  The last two (2) days at work have been Hell, and not that fun kind of burning the souls of sinners in the fiery pits sort of fun Hell but the other kind, you know the kind that sucks, the kind that is all pain and work, and will suck-ness.  I have to be up in less than seven (7) hours to go back to work at a job that I dont mind for a boss that can be kinda ok (when he is not at home sick and dieing of the Black Death) but for a company that is just about the most evil thing since coffee.  And I know that even though I busted my ass for the last two (2) days I know that some self important talking-cock-face is going to be all bent outta shape because this thing or that thing did not happen and I am going to be the one left to twist in the wind for it.  Man I tell you it fucking sucks being right all the goddamnedmotherfuckingtime.  Anyway I am going to go and try that thing with the eyes closed but just one more time and see if perhaps this time I cant make it work.  

Later 
Satan

mood: artistic music: Alkaline Trio "While Your Waiting"

-RED-

1.Closest red thing to you?
--My megaphone 
2. Has anyone ever cheated on you in a relationship?
--Yeah at least two of my ex-girlfriends potentially three
3. Last thing to make you angry?
--My job 
4. Are you a fan of romance?
--In the past I would have said no but as of late I must say YES
5. Have you ever been in love?
--Yes 
6. Do you have a temper?
--One that burns as brightly as a wildfire and I wish it culd be controlled as easily 

-ORANGE-

1. Closest orange thing to you?
--The picture of the Man Eating Carrot my friend painted back in high school 
2. Do you like to burn things?
--Fire good just don’t throw it 
3. Do you dress up for Halloween?
--if the costume can be made in less than an hour for under twenty bucks sure 
4. Are you usually a warm-hearted person?
--Depends on the time of day 
5. Do you prefer the single life or the security of a relationship?
--I can live with being single but I do really dig the relationship thing 
6. What would your super power be?
--Teleportation.  Totally, teleportation.

-YELLOW-

1. Closest yellow thing to you?
--Legal pad
2. The happiest time[s] of your life?
--Me and the open highway and nothing to do but drive and listen to good music and smoke cigs.
3. Favorite holiday?
--Halloween.
4. Are you a coward?
--On more times than I care to admit to
5. Do you burn or tan?
--I think the word char comes to mind 
6. Do you want children?
--Negative, Ghostrider that pattern is full.

-GREEN-

1. Closest green thing to you?
--Street sign I found one day years ago on a bike trail
2. Do you care about the environment?
--Yes
3. Are you jealous of anyone right now?
--Yes, fucking anyone who can make a living playing paintball
4. Are you a lucky person?
--In a way.  I should have been long since gone many a time by now but I am still here drawing breath.
5. Do you always want what you can't have?
--Yes, its called being human and alive at the same time.
6. Are you Irish?
--On my moms side, and German the donor’s side.

-BLUE-

1. Closest blue thing to you?
--Lava lamp.
2. Are you good at calming people down?
--If the situations needs it .
3. Do you like the sea?
--Without even a thought, yes.
4.What was the last thing that made you cry?
--Realizing that my family is made up of a bunch of fuckers (my aunts funeral this past Easter).
5. Are you a logical thinker?
--I like to think that I am.
6. Can you sleep easily?
--Head to pillow and the system goes down.
7. Do you prefer the beach or the woods?
--Beach, duh.

-PURPLE-
1. Last purple thing you saw?
--Dildo at the local porn shop.
2. Like being treated to expensive things?
--Can go with or with out.
3. Do you like mysterious things?
--Define, as in ghosts, yes.  As in tax forms, no.
4. Favorite type of chocolate?
--Milk.
5. Ever met anyone in royalty?
--No.
6. Are you creative?
--Kinda I guess or maybe not, hard to say.
7. Are you a lonely person?
--Not as of late, thank you Angel.

-PINK-
1. Closest pink thing to you?
--Hustler centerfold  
2. Do you like sweet things?
--Not really occasionally a Malibu and Coke can be good though.
3. Like play-fighting?
--Who don’t?
4. Are you sensitive?
--Depends on who you ask, some say yes other say I am a prick.  I like to think of my self as an Asshole.
5. Do you like punk music?
--Angry white men with guitars what is there not to like about tha?
6. What is your favorite flower?
--Fuck me, I don’t know.
7. Does someone have a secret crush on you?
--I guess so I don’t know.  This is a dumb question.  If its secret why and or how would I know???

Later 
Satan

mood: amused music: Alkaline Trio "Getting Jaked On Green Beers"

So 12 days since the last up-date have passed and now I find myself compelled to put something down for people to read.  Exactly what I am not so sure but here goes.

Question One:

"Smile if you Masturbated last night?"  

Statements 1 - 7

1.  Work, yeah that still sucks ass.
2.  Paintball, yeah that’s still addictive.
3.  School, yeah got to do that registering thing for classes in August 
4.  Girl, yeah I really like her and things for us are going really well these days.
5.  Vacation, I have two trips planned this summer one in early June to go up to Washington to see a friend from the University of Washington graduate.  And then a second trip in August to go out to Hawaii to see my sister.  This will be the first time in about six (6) years since I have seen her, its going to be a family reunion of sorts.
6.  Jeep, is running just fine and as soon as the weather turns better I will have to top off of Her again and enjoying it all the more.
7.  Game, yeah Vampire the Requiem (I am an AVST for that game) LARP is picking back up again.  Werewolf the Forsaken is about to take off (I am a Pack story teller for that game) and Mage the Awakening is alright (and yes I am an AVST for that one as well) But of all of these games it’s our little L5R table top game on Sunday nights that I look forward to the most.

Well I think that’s about all that I got. 

Later 
Satan

mood: amused music: Alkaline Trio "Hell Yes"

Wait you mean to tell me that I actually still have one of these things?!  What the fuck man...ok well yeah....this is odd.  I would like to up date everyone on everything that has been going on these last few months but that would take way much more time and effort than I am interested in putting in right now so how bout I just say this.  

The girl (Amanda) and I are still going strong.
Paintballing is a wonderful if not expensive addiction, and its one that I have not fed enought as of late but I am fixing that.
Work sucks, duh...
Game (as in LARP and table-top) is all sorts of good
And I am not back in school yet but I should be soon and once I am then that will suck as well.
Oh and Alkaline Trio: Remains is fuck off bad assed.

So once more until the next time, and that could be next week or four months later, we will just have to see.

Later 
Satan